Tuesday, December 8, 2009
Why does it take a minute to say hello and forever to say goodbye? Do you know that i was in love with a guy and the love is so deep that it still sadden me whenever i'm thinking of him. I choose to end up our relationship. I couldn't see our future together, can't see we grow old together. Despite the love, i just have to let go. True love doesn’t need to have a happy ending, because true love never ends. Letting go is one way of saying I love you. Till this day, he always have a special place in my heart.
And at the other side, my husband is waiting for me. His persistence truly paid off. I can't deny that he is the best person for me. I' so grateful that God blessed our broken road to lead us to a lifetime of happiness together.
I put a lyric of Rascal Flatts bless the broken road here and in my playlist. It specially dedicated ths to my sister. You will go thru the obstacle and find your true happiness..keep the faith
I set out on a narrow way many years ago
Hoping I would find true love along the broken road
But I got lost a time or two
Wiped my brow and kept pushing through
I couldn't see how every sign pointed straight to you
Every long lost dream lead me to where you are
Others who broke my heart they were like northern stars
Pointing me on my way into your loving arms
This much I know is true
That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you
I think about the years I spent just passing through
I'd like to have the time I lost and give it back to you
But you just smile and take my hand
You've been there you understand
It's all part of a grander plan that is coming true
Now I'm just rolling home
Into my lover's arms
This much I know is true
That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you
Thursday, November 26, 2009
One of my boss said that I’m a perfectionist. I told him I’m not..but I am a person who hate losing. I always want to be the best. I just can’t take it if people take me as average..average means sama saja with other people, a regular person who will lost in an organization of thousands of people..i need to differentiate myself. And I’m a person who believe in performance and capability..no such thing as bodekking boss..just can’t do it.. i’m too honest and outspoken to do that, paling tepat too loudmouth. So loudmouth person memang tak akan jadi kaki bodek yang terer sebab if boss look ugly I akan cakap dia look ugly ..how to bodek like that..
Dah terdivert cerita. I’m just plain sad listening to takbir raya. It’s been 3 years since I last celebrate Raya Qurban in Kelantan. In ’06, mom went to Mecca so we didn’t go back since my younger brother and sisters are staying with me at that time and last 2 years, I was in Dubai. Thought this year husband and I can go back to Kelantan but with our work commitment, not able to do that until tomorrow. After raya prayer baru balik Kelantan. When we made that decision, I was sort of OK with it but tonite for the first time I felt like crying while listening to the takbir. Being the eldest girl in the family, I always feel that it is my responsibility to go back home early to ensure all are OK, to ensure that my mom will not tiring herself cooking until she faint which has happened before..It’s not that I don’t trust my other siblings wud be able to handle things back at home, I just feel that I can do it better..typical me.
Anyway can’t wait to go home tomorrow. Happy Eid Mubarak to all friends and families and enemies and ex lover hahahaha
Back to my kiasu self..now tengah tension sebab the chess team is forcing me to join the KKP again next year. Remember in my earlier post months back I told you that I jadi bidan terjun. Since my result in the tournament is not bad for a first timer yang dah more than 10years didn’t touch the chess set, they want me to be in the team again and this time the KPI is 7.5/8 which means I have to win 7 and draw 1..Despite my emails stated that I will be very busy next year since 2 of my newly secured project will kick start at that time, it fell into deaf ears. Itu la aku tak faham instead of finding solutions by carik replacement ker or train few other people yg dah ada, they simple refuse to listen to me. They didn’t understand that thinking about chess pun dah buat aku stress.. of course I can be better than average if I train myself but the problem is aku tak minat and it’s difficult to do things that I don’t like. Of course I can force myself but it will be stressful la .. my job dah stressful enough at ths moment I don’t need another stress. I think I better pakat with my client that by June next year, we have to go to Pennsylvania to have the pre-loading meeting and monitor the execution of the first loading..itu lagi best kan..
Tuesday, November 24, 2009
I am actually relieved. Despite trying to be supportive of the initiative, I just didn’t see how it will work out. Been in the business long enough to know that with whatever people, process and system that we have now, it’s not enough to achieve what we want. Anyway it’s easy for me to say since my portion in the company remain intact and in fact expanding.
Thinking back, I have always made a right decision career wise in my whole life. Despite few failures and many lessons learnt, I am able to held my head high and say that I have achieved this and that. Would I be able to sustain what I have accomplish today ? God know.. but I always believe that as long as I work sincerely and with full integrity, the path will be a smooth one. I just have to remind myself often on my mom’s advise “ company bayar gaji and kita kena kerja as what they expect and give full commitment..kalu tak buat semua duit itu jadi duit haram..tak berkat”
Maunya tak takut fikir itu semua..just imagine makan duit haram whole life sebab malas kerja padahal integrity intact..better pegi makan rasuahkan..at least boleh jadi kayer senang-senang.
Monday, October 12, 2009
Monday, October 5, 2009
Monday, September 28, 2009
Wahai kengkawan yg dihormati sekelian, memandangkan budget tahun agak tidak mengizinkan, (baby baru lahir, rumah baru pindah and renovate, bonus siket!, increment tak seberapa), sudila kiranya dijemput menghadiri makan2 sket (adalah hidangan aqiqah kambing hero saya yg baru lahir tu) di alamat berikut:
Please RSVP by the xxx so that I can make the necessary arrangement.
Kepada yg tak dijemput, tak yah la tolong war-warkan… memang saya pilih jemputan saya…. Sebab tu tak mention Open House, tapi jemputan makan raya. Jadi, harap2 kengkawan tak yah sibuk tanya pada yg tak dijemput eh…
Harap maklum dan sekian terima kasih.
Alamak! Tarikh dan waktu lupa nak sebut….
Wednesday, September 16, 2009
selamat hari raya aidil fitri dan kemaafan dipohon jika ada kesalahan.. enjoy yr raya and holiday.
As for myself,
1. sedih tak dapat cuti early as ada meeting sampai jumaat, gilerkan sapa yg buat meeting on that day. yesterday, i told my colleagues, bila aku dah jadi President of ths company, aku nak balas dendam by calling them meeting masa anak nak nikah ker, masa depa raya ker..baru tau macam mana rasa..hahahaha
2. flight ticket to KB semua dah habis, i'm in waiting list. kalu tak dapat macam mana ? drive back ker ? imagine the traffic..mesti 15jam dalam keta..ingat jer pun terus rasa nak pengsan.
3. kuih raya ? finally got it from Ampang Point..cantik & sedap, tapi cepatnya habis. there's 1 cookies yg my husband suka, the week after aku pi nak beli lagi , dah habis..
4. hope would be able to sampai kampung by saturday morning, so aku dapat buka puasa kat rumah mak.
5. before that, have make sure all materials are ready for group mc meeting a week after raya. VP2 ni apsal la choose date for meeting after raya. kesian la kat staff2 nanti masa raya pun mesti kerna buat kerja.
Thursday, August 27, 2009
Malaysia bars Muslims from Black Eyed Peas concert
KUALA LUMPUR, Malaysia - Malaysia's government has barred Muslims from a concert by U.S. hip-hop stars the Black Eyed Peas next month because the event is organized by Irish beer giant Guinness, an official said .
The Malaysian show's official Web site said "the party is only open to non-Muslims aged 18 years and above." Previous major pop concerts in Malaysia, including one by the Black Eyed Peas in 2007, have always been open to Muslims.
"Muslims cannot attend. Non-Muslims can go and have fun," an official at the Ministry of Information, Communication and Culture told The Associated Press.
It was not immediately clear how the ban on Muslims will be enforced. Concert organizers did not immediately respond to a request for comments.
Wednesday, August 26, 2009
macam busy la pulak bulan puasa ths year. yesterday on day trip to Kerteh. Usually kalu travel to Eastern memang aku drive saja but this time since it's a last minute arrangement by my colleague and since it's only 1 meeting decided to take Firefly direct to Kerteh. resultnya ? masa boarding, the plane 3 kali termati engine..hahaha so imagine la my feeling. semua ayat Quran aku baca siap doa and everything. dah la tak sempat solat Subuh since flight at 6.30am, aku keluar rumah at 5.30 tak masuk waktu and by the time aku check-in dah terus kena boarding.
But at the end we have a smooth flight, the take off and landing memang smooth giler, mesti pilot yg terer. Balik at 6.20pm from Kerteh, resultnya horrror. Air pockets, clouds all journey, and masa landing it's very rough, nak termuntah aku. turun kapal terbang terus pening. Tak larat rasa nak drive balik.
For the next 3 weeks i'll become inspector police ..yup la sebab now in the midst of buat audit for customer satisfaction level. so far semua complaints saja..habis la korang sumer bila report keluar nanti. Ada la yg kena pegi training setahun nih.
I have a problem..office aku tak ada orang nak jual kuih raya ths year. so till now, aku belum order kueh lagi pun..macam mana ni. have to call Shima and ask her..Minah Singgah tu mesti ada kaki punya.
oh ya..terlupa. i'm under pressure now. hubby sort of force me to pakai tudung..tapi aku tak ready ..how laaaaa
Thursday, August 13, 2009
At least i got few good news today, our merit aka performance bonus will be in by tomorrow, the increment by end of ths mth (curious on the percentage hmmm) so mokcik kayo hahahha *evil laugh*
Anyway, i dont want to talk about all above here. Since ths week a non productive week for me kan, i spend time browsing thru the web, checking things for fun. Since i'm quite into cars nowadays, i checked fews owners club site. At first i onlt look at few mid range car punya owner's club..then getting more curious and start checking almost all car makers that i can think of. LOL. 5 days checking and before i started to get addicted i conclude:
1. There are so many people yang suka berforum in internet, age doesnt matter. 1 of the high end range car club, most of the forumers are above 35 yrs old (i know since they hv event gallery with their names to it) and yet they have something to say every other minutes. Thought only young cikus saja suka berforum.. huh.. U guys don't know how to use email mehhh ???..hahahha u ols must be curious now kan..let me give u a clue, the brand is 5 letters and it's for life..go figure LOL
2. Some of clubs are really professional. They only share infos and updates about their beloved carmakers. No nonsense other things are discussed in their forum..they keep their private thought privately.. clue ?? my ultimate driving machine la
3. Few clubs, there's no discussion on the technical or the car capabilities pun. All topics are about cars for sale even skim cepat kaya pun ada hahahaha..that's real funny. check out our second nation's pride.
Actually the list can go on and on and on but since i have to finish up my materials for tomorrrow meeting i stop here, otherwise sampai pagi la kerja. ciao
Wednesday, August 12, 2009
But i'm pissed and upset and errr.. i'm trying to find the exact words to describe my feeling but can't think of any. Anyway, inilah orang melayu..i didnt generalize melayu semua sama OK..but in my current workplace ramai yang perangai gini..memang aku cannot stand it. It's my nature, i says things that i think. i'm opinionated but not necesary i'm right. i accept that fact. i'm stubborn but not that stubborn.
Now when i'm involve with a project at a corporate level, i found out that some of my team members is upset whenever i gave comments about their research findings. Said that i want to tunjuk pandai la, berlagak la.. what the hell..NO wonder la.. i realized in many meetings i've attended, communication is only by the person and the boss. nobody else said anything. the person present the materials to the boss and only boss gave comments. others juts kept quiet. no wonder la the company is in such a bad state.
Remind me that the first week i joined the project, one of the sr management called me after the meeting and apologize if i'm hurt with some of his comments made during the weekly meeting. I'm like huh ??? Told him i'm OK. I can accept criticism and i take it as a challenge to improve. hey normal la how can we improve unless we listen to criticism, take it positively and improve. Aku tak paham betul la orang yg cannot accept kritikan nih.. apa dia ingat dia tu perfect ker terrer sangat sampai semua orang tak boleh comment. eventhough questions asked are valid..
Kalu cannot accept critic pegi la dok dalam hutan sorang2 dengan monyet..mesti tak ada org criticss.
Monday, August 10, 2009
I remember at that time memang heboh satu kelas, Juna kena paksa kawin by her dad sebab kantoi dating belakang rumah. In typical Kelantanese kampong, jumpa anak dating malam-malam is a big deal, eventhough baru pukul 8 lebih. No dad can tolerate such thing in kelantan those days..and mind you i'm still young OK so those days tu not so long ago.
We lost contact thereafter. My mom did sampaikan salam dia to me as and when they bump into each others. Mom said Juna meniaga kat pasar but i never have a chance to meet her, never during my short trip back eventhough quite few no. of times aku pi pasar teman mom.
So when i heard the news, sadness did wash over me. I do not know if she's having a good life or not but i do pray for her. Looking back, i just can't help wondering what will happen to her if she didnt marry that early. She's smart kid, as smart as i am. if i can be in the position i am now, i'm sure she can as well.
But that's fate. With that, breast cancer had taken away 2 frens of mine at this young age. Alfatihah to Juna and Olin.
Sunday, August 9, 2009
I've been busy lately with work. For people who know me will knew that whenever i'm super busy, i will easily burnt out. Emotionally unstable, tetiba sedih la, tetiba upset la, sometimes without any reason.
I was removed from my dept and was selected to involve in a very important task force. Huh, at first i thought WTH..but when i was briefed that the task force is reported directly the President, then i know how important it is lah. I can't talk much about this since it's highly confidential. What i want to talk about is how stressful i am since i'm involve with ths project. Yelah, i'm so kiasu i want to be the best in everything that i do, i can accept criticism and comments but at the same time i make sure i improved so i do not received the same comment thereafter.
So for the first 1 month doing that project i'm trying to be superwoman. Siang malam kerja, weekend pun sama. Kesian my husband, aku tak ada masa nak layan dia. Luckily every weekdays nite dia pegi gym so when he back at 10.30, i just prepare hot drink for him and i can continue with my work. At first i feel OK la, very stress but thought i can handle it.
But now come to 2nd months, i started to get tired of this lifestyle or i shud say this no life of mine. Seriously, i cannot tahan. My life only involve 2 aspect, 1 is work until late nite or until everybody want to go back so i have to leave as well since aku ni penakut (trust me Dayabumi memang banyak benda yang pelik2 hahaha) and when i reach home, i continue working until midnite. It's been months since i last went out with friends. I can't even remember when was the last time i went shopping.
So today, i conclude that i'm not a superwoman. I dont have to be a kiasu girl like i used to be when i was single. I got other commitment now. My life is not circle around my job only. I have other life as well. I NEED to have the other life.
So, boss, don't get angry. I can only do my level best. i want to be excellent but not super excellent, i just don't have enough enery for that anymore.
Wednesday, July 1, 2009
i'm backkk.. huh. now finally my life settled quite fine, i can start writing again. what to write ?? soooo many things.. but since i'm the queen of simplicity, i'll make a long story short.
1st - we have had a family vacation minus 1 sibling. it was quite sometimes since 7 of us sit together as a family. so despite of Beja not able to make it, we just go ahead with the plan. and fun did we have. i can see happiness in my mom's eyes. dah lama anak2 dia tak berkumpul even masa raya, ada yg balik dulu, ada yg balik later, so dah lama tak ada get together session. eventhough we keep updates thru emails tapi itu not counted.
2nd - i'm participating in KKP tht stand for Karnival Keluarga Petronas. Itu yearly event and i never bother with it before. But ths time since i kena jadi bidan terjun for woman chess representing maritime , OK la join saja. So after more than 10 years, i finally touch the chess set again..hahahha resultnyer..huh not to bad for first timer and conclusionnya, ladies players memang tak terrer lansung. i was told yang every year org yg sama saja main so aku pun puzzle apsal still tak pandai lagi..hahahaha
3rd - i've just change something biggggg.. so now commitment makin bertambah. wah hopefully my increment ths year can cover the cost lerr..
4th - June is an extremely busy month for me, so now it's over i can give a breath of relief....
I'll tell u what's happening in office in netx post. macam-macam ada..
Friday, June 5, 2009
u guys out there dont hv to remind me.. i know dah lama didnt write here..i'm just too busy and too lazy to write.. ave u heard of brain drain ??? tht's what happene to me now.. i'm brain drain.. can't think properly.. so hushhhh.. i'll write when i feel like it.. ok ??
bye bye for now
Saturday, May 16, 2009
Last weekend I watch Oprah and she’s talking to American’s most thriftiest mom. There’s some lesson learnt. Shopaholic is a recognised addiction. It’s hard to break but it’s not impossible.
Let me list down what the American’s thriftiest mom did to save money:-
1. List down all the items before go out to malls – check whether it’s necessity or just a pleasure to have
2. Shop only during sales. You will be amazed by end of the year, how much money can be save by doing this.
3. Always compare price, buy groceries at the cheapest place
4. Pay bills on time – if u cannot pay bills that means u not suppose to have money to shop.
5. Throw all yr plastics. Credit card memang menyusahkan. U tend to overspent. So if u can’t control yr spending, use cash. Bila cash habis, no more shopping ler.
I always have problem to save money before. It’s because whenever I try to save money I refrain myself from doing things that I like. Now I realize that is not the right way doing it. I mean how long can I refrain myself from entertain and pampering myself. I just had to be smart in doing it. American thriftiest mom is so right. We can splash now and then but yet still save money. Like in KL, there’s always opening promotion la or anniversary promotion la, mother’s day promotion la. So instead of sign up for a course in Spa or facial, go for the shop which is in offer. And I’m thinking if facial how, I use different product but last week I did some research and I’m amazed that I can find 3 beauty centre who is carrying a well known expensive brand is on promotion. Instead of paying $300 like I normally did for facial I can do the exact same thing for only $69. Huh.. Same thing for hair care and spa.
So actually saving money is not so difficult at all. I just need to put some effort and research. Well I hope this finding will give me a satisfying, enjoyable and balanced life.
Friday, May 8, 2009
Staffs, spouses and kids - Business Solutions & Development team
Budak2 paling seronok that day since hadiah depa macam2..Masa ni la sapa2 yg ramai anak tu untung besar. Ada yang sampai kena tumpang keta org lain bawak barang ..
Wednesday, May 6, 2009
As expected by mid morning, boss called. it's my turn for the appraisal. Lucky me since system ada sikit problem tadi, i am spared. we'll continue tomorrow hahahha i felt quite lucky by then..
While busy with works, one of my colleague Mrs N datang bergossip with me and one of my staff came trotting..rupa2nya to defend herself. Here's the story ...
During our family day last weekend, there's a session for flying fox for sapa2 yang nak buat. So ada one colleague ni let's call her Mrs A, her husband Mr A decided to joined the session. Mrs A since dia penakut decided not to join and just lepak tunggu kat bawah, landing spot. Nothing bad happened everybody enjoyed themselves semua happy2 and of coz ada yg takut2 and gelak2..but overall semua fun. Come today, timbul cerita that there'a another colleague let's called her Ms S try to flirt with Mr A during the session.
So itu la gossipnya..patutla aku nampak pagi2 depa dah dok soksek soksek rupanya ada cerita menarik. My staff tu terus cakap that it wasn't her yang start the gossip. Mrs A asked her and she just answer since she said that it's not proper for Ms S to sit nearby Mr A. BUT at the same time she also told me in secrecy (means not to tell anybody else which i'm telling now since i quite pissed with ths whole thing) that Mr A try to mesra2 with her sister during the weekend but her sister avoids him. What's that ??
Since aku busy today, tak sempat really give piece of my mind. Just told them not to be nasi tambah..memandai2 tambah cerita. This kind of things can be very serious. Women jealousy has no boundary. macam-macam boleh jadi.
Anyway, now i want to give pieces of my mind which :-
1. Gedik girls senang nampak. if they are gediks and like to flirt with everybody, it's rather obvious. Ms S can be a bit manja sometimes but she's not gedik. And i seriously dont think that she will flirt with her colleague husband (esp within same dept which we are quite close to each others)
2. There's different view from different people. Most of the people when asked said that they didnt notice if there's any flirting happened. There's only 1 or 2 people who said that she's flirting. So ?? My take.. different people, different opinion. people with open mind and unjudgemental will said nothing happened. people who is a bit conservative and judgemental will say that it's too much.
3. It's easy to blame other girl. I asked my staff, why she didnt tell Mrs A that Mr A try to mesra with her sister ?? Since when, when man flirt it's OK but if a girl flirt, she's a slut ?? excuse my language people..i'm too lazy to think of better words.
4. I blame to sapa2 yang bawak cerita ni. Yes maybe there's something but what if there's nothing.. what if nothing really happened up there, just a young girl getting excited doing new thing for the first time with a bunch of new people that she just got to know and try to be nice to..
5. if it's me..i will asked Ms S for clarification. if i think she's too much, i will said so. Just tell straight to her face that i dont like that she's talking to my husband in over frendly manner. Case close
Life is too short & especially too exciting to be jealous of anyone and what they possess. As for me , I only live my life and don't seek out to live someone elses. I always give my honest opinions and try to be as fair as possible. And i've learned not to be judmental. So keep rolling your eyes people because everytime you do... I know I've done something right!! hahahaha (I'm such an ass!!!)
Friday, May 1, 2009
Well what can i say, old habit hard to die. I'm always like this whenever i'm busy with works, every thing else become less important and that's including personal life. Always wanted to change it but like i said old habit hard to die.
Tomorrow my department is going to have our family day. Since i'm the PM for ths event, memang la super busy ths few days. Tambahan all my staffs are not in the office ths week, outstations la, attend conference la, MC la so memang la pening kepala boss. We are lucky that the resort make all the arrangement and coordinate the event so we dont have to think too much, just settle the goody bags and prizes.
Let's hope the event go well so nobody will complaints..not that people dare to do that..i found out that apparently my colleagues are scared of me hahhahah.. am i that fierce ker ???
Thursday, April 23, 2009
Tengok2 masa tu di downstairs buang sampah for me. Rupa-rupanya datang rumah nak mengadu nasib. My brother study in ITM and share a terrace house with another 9 boys. His house in Shah Alam, Sect 7 was rob that morning. Semua HP. laptop and cash kena curi. That's why la dia datang senyap2, no Hp to call me.
He was home since 6 + waiting and praying for me to come back early. of coz la bila ada masalah he's looking for me, aku kan banker dia. Luckily hari ni awal sikit, by 8 i've reached home. Anyway, kita bersyukur sebab the thieves didnt take all the motorbike..Kalu tak mesti semua budak2 tu menangis teruk.
Monday, April 20, 2009
Ini dekat Mt. Kinabalu park. Most of the climber will start their climbing from this Timpohon gate. Unfortunately masa we ols sampai it started to rain so x dapek ler nak camwhoring banyak2.
Friday, April 10, 2009
Back to my story, this time i was appointed as 1 of the speaker during sharing session. I was asked to share my success stories. Tapikan the problem is i dont think i'm that successful. I'm too young to be that successful. All successful people suppose to be older than 35 unless your parent kaya raya yang boleh bagi jalan to be young, rich and successful.
I think myself as biasa-biasa saja. Yes i'm doing quite well for my age but so as many others.. There's a person who had asked me before what made me who i am now..fyi, he look at me as one successful lady, above average compared to others.. and i remeber i told him that i'm not that successful, there are so many things that i have yet to achieve.
This has made me thinking, had i stayed in my previous company, i'll be the no. 3 in the ranking and mind you it is a huge international company.. no regret though, who can tahan kerja like mad. no personal life at all. at that time, my life is my work. if continue husband mana can tahan.
Writing this ..i still have no idea what i'm going to talk about tomorrow hmmmm
Friday, April 3, 2009
So when MAS advertise of their low fare, the morning the advertisement came out, we check the internet and after checking fare and everything, decided that we are going to BKI. How much is our fare ?? MYR 138/person return including tax. that's almost like 20% of original fare. even cheaper than Air Asia.
Now, my bag is pack and i'm ready to go. I'm sure we'll have great fun.
Monday, March 30, 2009
Last Saturday I went to watch movie – Knowing starring Nicholas Cage. Dah lama sangat tak tengok wayang. Usually it’s 1 of husband and I punya aktiviti bila dah tak ada benda lain nak buat.
So went to 1 utama and since dah lama tak pegi, GSC theatre pun dah lupa kat mana hahahaha. Anyway, I chose Knowing sebab nampak trailer dia macam OK saja and I like Nick Cage, without further checking on the story terus beli tiket. So the verdict is OK-OK saja la. My husband even tertido-tido sebab boring. It’s about premonition and end of the world thingy plus aliens and a little bit of suspense here and there. Tapi if u ask me, tak tengok pun tak apa. My rating for it is just 2.5 ** saja.
Saturday, March 28, 2009
So do I regret choosing ths dept ? Not until that stage la since the experience and knowledge that I gain is more valuable dari kena marah dengan boss. Lagipun I already choose my career path so better stick to it. No pain no gain kan.. macam Karam Singh Walia said bersusah-susah dahulu bersenang-senang kemudian.
Wednesday, March 18, 2009
There are 13 managers from various business units and subsidiaries involve in the program. First day, before we start with other things, we have to do personality test. Well, all of us hv done lots of personality test before since personal development memang dititik beratkan in my company. So, I know my personality, my strength and weaknesses. All ths while I know that I’m an eagle or some test call it choleric, but ths recent test had shown that my eagles personality dah jadi makin dominant. No wonder aku ni makin teruk. FYI, they called the personality as powerful eagle. Most of the time it’s my way, I’m always right, kind of attitude. Jenis yang nak menang saja and hate losing. Stubborn, domineering, and dictatorial.
There’s no good or bad personality and all of our personality is a combination of few others, tapi yang mana paling dominan akan membentuk a person.
Do I like being and eagle ?? the answer is yes and no. I like being in control but I realize that sometimes when we are domineering and dictatorial it was perceived as harsh to others.
Research showed that people can’t change their personality. We have no control of it. So if we are not in control macam mana nak berubah ?? I should develop my sanguine side more lah so I will not be perceived as boss perempuan gila yang suka marah orang.. L
Sunday, March 15, 2009
Friday, March 13, 2009
This morning disebabkan laksa johor yang best giler cooked by my colleague, i dah terlari from my schedule. If you know me, then u know that i'm a very punctual person. Tak suka lambat and tak suka tunggu orang. If i'm late i will call to tell people i'll be late, i will not let people tertunggu-tunggu. So bila dah lambat macam-macam la nak jadi, yelah dah panic kan..
Anyway, peristiwa yang memalukan tu is aku nak shake hand tapi tak berbalas..hahahha and worst is customer aku tu pun macam panic jugak don't know what to say and macam serba salah..so awkward and i'm so embarassed. I blame myself la jugak. Never judge a book by it's cover. memang la the customer look macam OK saja tak nampak macam alim sangat but who knows kan..
So, lesson to be learnt for me...hahaha
Tuesday, March 10, 2009
like my sister said, kat Dubai aku big boss so tak busy sangat tapi pressure yang teramat. bila dah balik KL banyak lagi big boss kat atas so i'm back to jadi kuli, busy yang teramat tapi pressure kurang. so dari dulu lagi aku memang tak jeles kat orang2 yang jadi big boss sebab i know they have to face tremendous pressure.
hmmm.. tengok member2 Dubai pegi Umm Al Quwain memang jeles. our crab trip last time tak menjadi sebab masa plan nak pegi tu bukan musim dia. so frustrated. almost semua tempat kat UAEtu aku dah merayap tapi tak pernah sampai situ.
this morning terlupa pulak nak bawak hp. it's always like that, i know that there's something wrong macam tertinggal something tapi tak tau apa.. actually bagus la jugak so tak ada la ramai org cari..hahahhaa
Anyway, now update blog while waiting for a meeting. need to present a logisics study about a landlocked country. kalau berjaya, makan angin la aku.. wish me luck :-)
Monday, March 2, 2009
Semua benda terus tak jadi buat, Heroes season 3 memang best. No more save the cheerleader save the worlds. Unlike Lost yang makin mengarut and aku dah malas nak ikut dah, Heroes makin best.
New season will start by mid March, dah tak sabar-sabar dah.
Monday, February 23, 2009
Slumdog Millionaire wins big in all awards. MIA yang ada Indian blood with her Paper Planes song jadi famous (well she is an accomplished artist but basically unknown internationally) and now my best friend, Ilynn is going to Dubai to join her boyfren (who all of us frens don’t like), Indian guy from India.
I’m not a racist, I have few Indian friends but universally, Indians are associated with cocky, arrogant, putar belit bunch of people. Ilynn’s boyfren is typical Indian guy with all character mentioned earlier. Memang menyampah. At least I can still act decent and polite whenever we meet each other, tapi another fren, Janelle memang tak bagi muka punya. Everytime jumpa memang bergaduh and I can imagine mesti Ilynn pening.
I’m sad that my best friend is leaving. We have known each other for so long and all of us have gone through so many things together, thru all the happiness, sadness, broken hearts, and life changes. She does always give her shoulder to cry on. A big sister(despite younger in age) who would look after a bunch of crazy young girls who at times do crazy things, to make sure at the end we always do the right things.
I’m against the move and she’s very much aware about it. In fact I have tried to avoid her for the past 3 weeks. So many lunch and dinner dates were cancelled with many excuses given. I’m sure dia terasa hati with me. But I can’t help it, I have to show my protest kan ?? All my gang is leaving me. Pris is now happily settled in Italy, Janelle is in Bahrain, Ferin..ahhh my dear Ferin, what happened to you girl ?? and the fren that I love the most, Ilynn is now leaving me too. Nanti kalu aku bergaduh dengan husband, I don’t have anybody to talk to ..huhhuhuhu
Anyway, Ilynn is leaving in first week of March. Need to meet-up before her departure. We have been fren long enough for me to act this cruel while she always support my decision even though she’s totally disagree with it. And i have to accept the fact that the guy had beat me..hmm macam competition la pulak..
So now, my dear friend, I wish you joy, happiness, love and all the best in the world. GODSPEED ..
eventhough i don't like most of the Indians but Slumdog Millionaire remain one of my fave movies of all time. :-)
Wednesday, February 18, 2009
Baru sedap2 nak tido sebab hari ni balik awal after long hard work, tengok2 my husband called. He’s at Caltex in front of our house and dia cerita ada mat rempit ni bawak laju and terlanggar keta an Indian. This happened kat Caltex tu la..motor mat rempit tu terpeleset masuk bawak keta and mat rempit tu terpatah kaki dia. The Indian tu called ambulance and try to help since mat rempit tu budak lagi. My husband cakap looks like 14 or 15 yrs old saja.
Tengok2 lepas tu ntah macam mana, ramai2 geng mat rempit came to the Caltex and tolak2 the Indian driver and his fren sampai ke jalan and lepas tu pegi pukul ths 2 guys. I asked my husband apsal org2 dekat Caltex tak tolong and he answer was ramai sangat mat rempit macam more than 30 people and semua passerby tak berani nak masuk campur including himself. Masa my husband left the gas station tu, sorang Indian tu bengkak seluruh badan tapi still alive and another 1 dah tak bergerak lansung. Tak tau la nasib dia macam mana.
I’m angry. Angry with the police yang terlalu corrupt sampai tak pernah buat kerja, angry with the government, angry at mak bapak yang tak mengajar anak-anak. Angry with rakyat Malaysia yang take things for granted. Angry with mat rempit yang semuanya Melayu. Angry with all stupid politicians yang sibuk berpolitik dari menguruskan Negara.. arghh angry with everything. (also, I’m angry a bit with passersby incl husband aku yang tengok saja without taking any action, but at the same time, I think I wud do the same if I’m there. Orang dah gila bukannya kisah sapa2, pukul saja)
I’m sure esok, if ths case masuk paper, police will says that it’s nothing, story will be twisted so tak nampak teruk. I’m not surprise if lepas ni the Indian guy punya families revenge pulak. Bukannya tak pernah happened.
At the end, we are human being, tak kira la apa race pun. Nobody deserve to be treated in that manner. Kalau dah terrrer sangat pegi la “gochoh” 1 to 1 buat apa panggil geng ramai2 pukul sorang. Itu bodo namanyer.
My heart goes out to the victims. Hope both of them are OK.
Since last week, everyday work until midnight. Macam nak mati dah.. or worst dah jadi ugly aunty since skin so dry, rambut tak sempat blow, simple make-up, comfort shoes instead of heels.. memang horrendous.
Dah seminggu tak tengok matahari, keluar rumah at 6.30 and balik dah midnight. So busy sampai tak ada masa nak check on husband dah makan ke belum..sorry la darling.
So this afternoon after all done, just realize how horrendous I looked for the past few days. Dah lama tak kerja until late nite esp since I joined my current company. Kalau previous company, 24 x 7 memang tak cukup and tht’s what made me decided to leave despite everything that I love there (I promise to tell the story soon)
Remind me of Auntie Zoey, work till late nite everyday but still look so cun thereafter.. wah wah wah :-)
Now that age is catching up, memang rasa penat unlike when i'm in 20's, everyday balik lambat pun OK saja. hmmm dah tua rupernya aku..hahha
Sunday, February 8, 2009
So this afternoon I watched it at home. It is really a good movie, somewhat heart wrenching.
As I suspected, Indian hate ths movie, claimed that portrayal of poverty is a little too extreme. Since I never been to India, I can’t judge.
Anyway, I really recommend for all to watch it. In a way, it remind me how lucky I am with what I have. There’s so many other people in ths world who aren’t so lucky but yet, they are thankful with what little things they have.
Wednesday, February 4, 2009
How fickle minded people can be. In a way, i’m still naive in this part. I always look at things on positive manner. When people make a bad remarks, i treat it as a joke. I’m not a person who easily kecil hati with nonsense.
Seriously, life won’t be much fun if you look at everything and everyone on negative side. It is very tiring isn’t it ??? For me, even if i’m upset with things at work, all my energy is drained lagilah if upset with life..memang miserable..
So this entry is dedicated to all of you miserable losers out there. Live your life, enjoy it, don’t be sad, don’t be mad, life is much more beautiful if you look at things on positive perspective... and jangan suka dok mengata orang noooo..nobody’s perfect including yourself.. peace to the world.
Tuesday, February 3, 2009
They called it the toughest race on earth...A race extraordinaire, only possible in Alaska.
A race over 1150 miles of the roughest, most beautiful terrain Mother Nature has to offer. Across jagged mountain ranges, frozen river, dense forest, desolate tundra and miles of windswept.
As mentioned in their official web, the Iditarod Trail, now a National Historic Trail, had its beginnings as a mail and supply route from across Alaskan towns. Mail and supplies went in. Gold came out. All via dog sled. Heroes were made, legends were born.
In 1925, part of the Iditarod Trail became a life saving highway for epidemic-stricken Nome. Diphtheria threatened and serum had to be brought in; again by intrepid dog mushers and their faithful hard-driving dogs.
The Iditarod is a commemoration of those yesterdays, a not-so-distant past that Alaskans honor and are proud of.
This year race is next month, so memang tak sempat for me already. Since i have no new year resolution this year, i promise myself to save money so i can go all across Alaska to see the race in 2011. 2 tahun sempat la simpan $$$$ kan... :-). wish me luck..
Friday, January 30, 2009
Kat rumah, balik dah lambat (u know KL traffic la), lepas tu nak prepare dinner lagi, nak kemas rumah lagi, nak tengok tv lagi, mana ada masa nak berblogging.... (sounds familiarkan..exucse excuse excuse..hahhaha)
Anyway, I will try to update as regular as i can, i promise :-) ..
p/s Now i tengah update blog sambil buat reflexology sebab tak boleh masuk office, tak bawak card. Bila Jumaat budak2 ni mesti rewang mana2 sebab lunch time sampai 2hrs so nobody at office to open the door for me. So instead of lunch, i opt for reflex murah beb, 1hrs cuma $30.. hahahha..
Sunday, January 25, 2009
But what else in Uzbek ya ??? Ada tempat shopping or sight-seeing yang best-best ka ?? After done few googles, I concludes that Uzbek ada:-
1. Banyak historical places yang best-best (to name fews are Samarkand, Bukhara, Khiva..sounds familiar rite..nak tau pi check sendiri)
2. Shopping – not able to get infos. Tapi mesti ada kan otherwise macam mana dia org hidup..
3. Public transport quite OK.
4. Tempat tu mesti giler tak best.
So conclusion nyer ??? Memang susah nak dapatkan info pasal Uzbek nih..
Saturday, January 17, 2009
I’m in a stage of losing my mind and reasons are:
1. The 14 boxes of personal items that I brought back from Dubai is still lying at my living room. Tak tau dah nak letak mana.
a. Almari baju semua dah penuh, dah tak ada tempat nak fit in baju baru. So cannot unpack
b. Almari buku semua dah penuh, so cannot unpack boxes of books
c. Lepas dah bagi orang kasut2 yang aku tak nak pakai, shoe cabinet still lagi penuh and tak
dapat nak fit in some of the shoes. So now I have like 10+ shoe boxes yang tak ada tempat
d. Dah pening kepala nak re-organize things in the house
Sekarang ni aku dah decides that I need to buy a 8 bedroom house so besides bedrooms for adik2 aku yang selalu melepak masa weekend, aku boleh buat 1 room for clothes, 1 room for shoes/bag, 1 room for books/magazines, 1 room for me to sepahkan with nonsense things that I bought eventhough I don’t need it. Anybody want to donate money huh ???
2. My new job assignment is in KLCC…and I hate it. KLCC and me is not a good match OK. Just imagine, kaki shopping who use excuse of shopping as a stress reliefs, and to put her in that big bad shopping mall is just an evil act. Like my fren, Putri said, better be careful, tempat tu berhantu.. yup berantu la since masa masuk duit ada banyak dalam wallet, tapi lepas kluar ntah macam mana duit dah hilang, paper bag saja yang banyak2 pegang kat tangan..LOL..
Adoiiiii.. seriously I hate it till the extend that I’m thinking of resigning…hahahaha that show how serious I am.
3. There’s some changes on my company top management. Biasala kan when there’re changes, people tend to get nervous. Seriously, aku dah nak termuntah with all those rumours and assumptions and etc etc.. For me senang saja, if you are extremely not happy with your workplace or your superior or whatever lah and just can’t stand it anymore, just resign saja lor.. buat apa nak pening2 kan otak sendiri and also otak kawan2 yang lain ie. yours truly ler..
4. KL traffic yang teruk gilerrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.. aku actually dah lupa that KL traffic is really really really horrible. OMG..i just can’t stand it..arghhhhhhh..
Thursday, January 8, 2009
I have a good fun 1.2 years. Despite all the “miserableness” and loneliness, i have to admit that i do enjoy my life. Made few good friends, experience & learnt few things and now its time to move on...
Hari tu my boss asked me what will i miss in Dubai ? I said nothing. Tapi now dah balik KL, i surely miss few things..
Things that i will miss:-
1. Friendships & some people (not all OK)
2. Abra rides
3. The beaches (yang 10minit boleh sampai unlike KL, of coz aku bole pi beach in Port Klang kalu nak mandi dengan tikus & minyak hahahha)
4. The money of course
5. Shopping masa Sales
6. Jalan2 masa winter
7. Boots (my fav. pharmacy sebab packaging dia sooo la chantekkks)
Things that i won’t miss:
1. Expensive & fake lifestyle
2. Briyani & Mandy (nak termuntah dah makan LOL..)
3. Everythings in between.
Tapi the most important lesson learnt is that i definitely miss my husband. U see, my husband is a busy man, his job required him to travel often, so i’m used to be separated, to take care of myself. I am an independent strong woman. So, when the management choose me to set-up the office in Dubai, i thought i’ll be OK. After all i’m use to separation. Tapi tengok2, i’m not that strong lerr.. i do miss my husband so much and in a way, i feel guilty that he had to take care of himself esp masa puasa hari tu, memang kesian.
Some people said money can buy happiness but not for me lah. Shopping everyday pun still cannot diminish my misery and rindu to husband. So if shopping (yg by the way is my favourite pastime and stress relief) pun tak boleh cure my miserableness, means money is not important la kan ???
Aint I’m glad that i am home now ..
p/s: thanx to my dear frens yang everyday buat makan farewell sampai jeans aku pun dah ketat sesangat dah..LOLLL
Sunday, January 4, 2009
Tup-tup system down.. lepas tu bodo punya ground crew, tak bagi info kat semua passengers. semua dok tunggu macam orang bodo....
Now at 5.33pm, i'm still waiting (ini tak check in lagi ni tau)..macam mana aku nak round duty free nihhhhhhh... arrrrghhhh..
SOOOOOO.. next time no more Malaysia Airline..dah tak ada patriotik2 dah. dah la kapal terbang buruk, foods tak sedap, ini will be the last time i'm flying with MAS...
Saturday, January 3, 2009
View from the hotel.
Makam Nabi Yahya di Umayyad Mosque
Makam cucu Nabi Muhammad saw - Hussain (masa aku pegi lagi ramai orang dok menangis kat makam Hussain,, guess itu semua mesti Syiah)