For sale

Harley XL883 for sale.. u can get it for MYR75K cash, the biker excluded tapi can try to make an offer in case interested LOL.

Last unit in Malaysia lepas ni model dah discontinue dah..for collector memang sesuai..

Despite merayu-rayu kat husband aku still tak dapat..Thought i look good on it..kan ? rasa nak jual my car for ths babe

Guilty pleasure

pssttt.. i wanna tell u. last weekend i went crazy. Woke up early morning, by 9.30am out from the house. Destination ? 1st is The Curve by 12noon, left the place with 3 paper bags. Next, The Gardens, can't remember the damage but got shoes that i wanted. Reason ? don't know la, stress i guess. I haven't take leave since December and my schedule was really hectic. I can feel that my body and mind is really-really tired.

I haven't work ths hard since my last company. The company that i love the job, the money and frens but has to leave because i know if i continue there, i might be a divorcee after 6 mths married hahahaha, who can tahan if the wife has to work till late nite everyday.

Now, i'm eyeing for a Chanel bag. That's my dream besides an Hermes Birkin. If i get it, i'll stop buying handbags for the rest of my life.. can ahhh ???

The Tigress

Happy new year.. Can’t believe that time flies that fast. Seems like only yesterday I returned from Dubai. I asked myself, what is my achievement in 2009. Seems like nothing. GOD..that’s depressing. To think that I actually did nothing fruitful for the whole year. Anyway, what bygone be bygone. Let’s start this new year with something.

I’ve made a list of what I want to achieve this year and paste it at my workstation. So I can remind myself of it every day.

2010 is tiger year. Chinese horoscope stated that it won’t be a good year for a tiger like yours truly.

I have many of tiger characteristic in me. It is a sign of courage, a fearless and fiery fighter, optimistic, straightforward, passionate and independent which truly describe me. While I can be quick tempered but considerate at the same time and most important is tiger are generally well liked because of their charming personalities..hehehe I definitely want to think that that’s true.

Oh another tiger characteristic that truly describe me is “tiger like to spend money and also to share it, can be quite impulsive spenders because they know that they can always make more” hahahaha..spot-on rite.

Anyway, the advice given to tigers are do not speculate or gamble, do not lend money and be patient at work. Hope I will remember this :-P

I gotta a feeling

Tonite memang good nite. Sky so bright. From bedroom windows, I can clearly see KLCC, KL Tower, TM Tower, Genting lights and best thing is Sunway colourful lightings.

A nite like this make me wanna go out and enjoy life, enjoy the freedom, enjoy the moment..forget about all those misery and sadness. Who says life is suck..

Bless the broken road

Today is all about emo...

Why does it take a minute to say hello and forever to say goodbye? Do you know that i was in love with a guy and the love is so deep that it still sadden me whenever i'm thinking of him. I choose to end up our relationship. I couldn't see our future together, can't see we grow old together. Despite the love, i just have to let go. True love doesn’t need to have a happy ending, because true love never ends. Letting go is one way of saying I love you. Till this day, he always have a special place in my heart.

And at the other side, my husband is waiting for me. His persistence truly paid off. I can't deny that he is the best person for me. I' so grateful that God blessed our broken road to lead us to a lifetime of happiness together.

I put a lyric of Rascal Flatts bless the broken road here and in my playlist. It specially dedicated ths to my sister. You will go thru the obstacle and find your true happiness..keep the faith

I set out on a narrow way many years ago
Hoping I would find true love along the broken road
But I got lost a time or two
Wiped my brow and kept pushing through
I couldn't see how every sign pointed straight to you

Every long lost dream lead me to where you are
Others who broke my heart they were like northern stars
Pointing me on my way into your loving arms
This much I know is true
That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you

I think about the years I spent just passing through
I'd like to have the time I lost and give it back to you
But you just smile and take my hand
You've been there you understand
It's all part of a grander plan that is coming true

Now I'm just rolling home
Into my lover's arms
This much I know is true
That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you

Bila takbir bergema

Listening to takbir raya while preparing report that had to be presented to management next Monday and at the same time has to finalize HSEQ procedure for my new customer is so pathetic. As if I got nothing better to do. But that’s the fact I’m facing right now. Is my job so important that my whole life have to circle around it ? I clearly know that the answer is no but I just hate being a loser.

One of my boss said that I’m a perfectionist. I told him I’m not..but I am a person who hate losing. I always want to be the best. I just can’t take it if people take me as average..average means sama saja with other people, a regular person who will lost in an organization of thousands of people..i need to differentiate myself. And I’m a person who believe in performance and capability..no such thing as bodekking boss..just can’t do it.. i’m too honest and outspoken to do that, paling tepat too loudmouth. So loudmouth person memang tak akan jadi kaki bodek yang terer sebab if boss look ugly I akan cakap dia look ugly ..how to bodek like that..

Dah terdivert cerita. I’m just plain sad listening to takbir raya. It’s been 3 years since I last celebrate Raya Qurban in Kelantan. In ’06, mom went to Mecca so we didn’t go back since my younger brother and sisters are staying with me at that time and last 2 years, I was in Dubai. Thought this year husband and I can go back to Kelantan but with our work commitment, not able to do that until tomorrow. After raya prayer baru balik Kelantan. When we made that decision, I was sort of OK with it but tonite for the first time I felt like crying while listening to the takbir. Being the eldest girl in the family, I always feel that it is my responsibility to go back home early to ensure all are OK, to ensure that my mom will not tiring herself cooking until she faint which has happened before..It’s not that I don’t trust my other siblings wud be able to handle things back at home, I just feel that I can do it better..typical me.

Anyway can’t wait to go home tomorrow. Happy Eid Mubarak to all friends and families and enemies and ex lover hahahaha

Back to my kiasu self..now tengah tension sebab the chess team is forcing me to join the KKP again next year. Remember in my earlier post months back I told you that I jadi bidan terjun. Since my result in the tournament is not bad for a first timer yang dah more than 10years didn’t touch the chess set, they want me to be in the team again and this time the KPI is 7.5/8 which means I have to win 7 and draw 1..Despite my emails stated that I will be very busy next year since 2 of my newly secured project will kick start at that time, it fell into deaf ears. Itu la aku tak faham instead of finding solutions by carik replacement ker or train few other people yg dah ada, they simple refuse to listen to me. They didn’t understand that thinking about chess pun dah buat aku stress.. of course I can be better than average if I train myself but the problem is aku tak minat and it’s difficult to do things that I don’t like. Of course I can force myself but it will be stressful la .. my job dah stressful enough at ths moment I don’t need another stress. I think I better pakat with my client that by June next year, we have to go to Pennsylvania to have the pre-loading meeting and monitor the execution of the first loading..itu lagi best kan..

Don't be dissapointed

I’ve told you that I was involved in something big at work kan. Finally the material was presented to the management committee Thursday. Outcome ? It’s a sad outcome. Despite all the hardwork put in by the team members, decision made against it. So finally, it’s going to happen.

I am actually relieved. Despite trying to be supportive of the initiative, I just didn’t see how it will work out. Been in the business long enough to know that with whatever people, process and system that we have now, it’s not enough to achieve what we want. Anyway it’s easy for me to say since my portion in the company remain intact and in fact expanding.

Thinking back, I have always made a right decision career wise in my whole life. Despite few failures and many lessons learnt, I am able to held my head high and say that I have achieved this and that. Would I be able to sustain what I have accomplish today ? God know.. but I always believe that as long as I work sincerely and with full integrity, the path will be a smooth one. I just have to remind myself often on my mom’s advise “ company bayar gaji and kita kena kerja as what they expect and give full commitment..kalu tak buat semua duit itu jadi duit haram..tak berkat”

Maunya tak takut fikir itu semua..just imagine makan duit haram whole life sebab malas kerja padahal integrity intact..better pegi makan rasuahkan..at least boleh jadi kayer senang-senang.